Blind!RomanoxMale!Reader- Can I be your eyes? Pt.1

Warning: Yaoi, slight gay bashing (courtesy of an asshole Denmark)( Which I do not support in any way whatsoever. If I did, why would I be writing a yaoi reader insert?)
some OOC-ness and cheesyness, and cursing. Hey, it's Romano, what do you expect?
Note: And another thing, this takes place in the Gakuen Hetalia universe so you wearing the uniform and whatnot.
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You were sitting at your usual lunch table in the corner.

Watching him.

That hot Italian.

No, not Feliciano.

Nope, not Marcello either.

You had your eye on the oldest Vargas. The hot tempered one with the dark brown hair and golden brown eyes that you often lost yourself in. Yeah, that's him.

Lovino Vargas.

Just hearing that name was enough to make your face match those tomatoes Lovino loved so much.

You sighed dreamily as you turned your attention to your old and torn notebook, filled with song lyrics. You quickly jotted down a few words before you quickly closed the notebook.

You looked over at Lovino again. His gaze shifted to you and he saw you staring at him. He glares at you, but you simply smiled at him. You swore you saw his face turn pink as he looked away.

You laughed quietly as you picked up your bag and you guitar case and left the cafeteria, blushing while thinking of Lovino.

*Time skip*

You opened you locker and stuffed your books into it. A piece of paper fell out of it as you did so. You closed your locker before you picked up the note.

'Band practice after school at the usually place. Don't be late! Kesesese.
-The Awesome Gilbert'

You chuckled as you crumpled up the note and shoved it into the pocket of your blazer. You were walking to the music room when someone shoved you against the wall.

"What the fuck is your problem?" You demanded angrily.

"My problem is you, fag."

Your face turned white. 'Fucking hell, can't he just leave me alone for one fucking day?'

You knew that voice and tried your best to avoid it. It belonged to Mathias Køhler, some Danish kid who loved to use you as his personal punching bag. Few reasons being, you looked quite feminine for a guy and you were somewhat short, about the height of you brother, Kiku. Perfect bullying target, right? But the main reason Mathias was picking on you was because you were gay and appearently, the guy's a homophobe.


"Look, just accept the fact the I'm gay and leave me alone. If you don't like me, then fuck off."

"I would if you would just disappear. Hetalia Acadamy doesn't need queers like you, wait, scratch that, the whole world doesn't need you, so just go kill yourself already." Mathias said.

"Fuck you, why don't you homophobic douchebags get the fuck out of my face." You retorted.

"What did you just call me?"

"A douchebag, because that's what you are." You said bluntly.

"You son of a bitch!" Mathias growled before punching you in the face. Then he wrapped his fingers around your neck and lifted you off the ground. He punches you in different places several times. Just when he was about strike you again, there was a knife pressed against his neck. There was a dark aura surrounding the both of you.

"Leave _______ alone." A creepy voice said.

Mathias lets go of your neck. You collapsed on the ground, coughing violently and gasping for air. You looked up to see a boy with platinum blond hair with an ahoge sticking up and dark blue eyes.

"Ты ў парадку?, ________?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Thanks, Nikolai." You replied.

"Заўсёды калі ласка, but you don't look fine to me." Nikolai said.

"Eh, I'm used to it. I'll just patch up a bit and use some makeup and I'm good."

"I don't care if you're used to it. You shouldn't let Mathias beat you up like that. Also, I know that you're gay, but knowing you, you're not the type of guy that wears makeup."

"So, why are you here?" You asked, quickly changing the subject.

"You didn't show up for band practice, so Gilbert sent me to find you." Nikolai explained. "Speaking of practice, the others are going to get mad if we don't come back soon, but first, let's patch you up."


You nodded. "Okay."

*In the music room*

"Oh my god, _________, are you okay?"

"I'm fine, Alfred, now get off of me. You're too damn heavy, lay off the McDonald's for once."

"Dude, no way that's ever gonna happen and I'm not that fat!" Alfred complained.

"Don't listen to him, love. _________'s just teasing you." Arthur reassured, giving Alfred a peck on the lips.

"Hey, can you guys not get all lovey dovey in front of me?" You said.

"You jelly?" Alfred teased.

"No, I'm peanut butter." You said sarcasticly.

"You're still after that Italian kid? Just ask him out already." Alfred replied.

"That Italian kid has a name, Al, and his name's Lovino. Second of all, he's pretty popular and all the girls are after him, so I'm pretty sure he's straight. If I tell him, he might hate me." You explained.

"You never know, _________. Just have some confidence." Nikolai said.

"I'll try."

"Hey, guys, will you stop talking about your romance problems and let's practice?" Gilbert asked.

"Hai, hai, whatever you say, Gil." You sighed,opening you guitar case and taking out a (favorite color) electric guitar.

"What songs should we play, ________?" Arthur asked.

"How about that song Alfred wrote? Payphone, I think it was called." You said as you tapped the microphone, making sure it worked.

"Sounds good." Nikolai replied as he tuned his guitar.

This was one of the few times you felt comfortable. The band you were in was called Clear. It was pretty well known at Hetalia Acadamy. The band consisted of you, the lead singer and one of the gutarists, Nikolai, a Belarusian boy who's also a guitarist along with the British kid, Arthur, then there's Alfred, who plays the bass, and on the drums was Gilbert, who's German, or Prussian if you wanna get technical. They were your friends for as long as you could remember and they still stuck around and supported when you came out of the closet.

"________, are you writing a new song?" Gilbert asked, looking through your notebook.

You slammed your guitar case shut. "Eh?!?!"

"It looks like a love song, judging from the lyrics." Gilbert said.

You quickly snatched the notebook away from him, blushing furiously.

"Hey, no need to be embarrassed."

"Don't go looking through other people's things!" You scolded.

"Let me guess, you're writing a song for L-O-V-I-N-O." Gilbert teased.

"Shut up. So what if I am?"

"Calm down, you're acting like a lovesick high school girl." Gilbert laughed.

You smacked Gilbert upside the head. "Idiot. Don't you have things to do with Matthew?"

"Ah, how unawesome of me to forget I had a date with Mattie after band practice! Bis nachher, ________."

"Later, Gil." You said walking the opposite way.

You were too busy dozing off that you didn't see where you were going. You bumped into someone and fell backwards.

"Mi dispiace, I didn't see you there."

You blushed. You knew this voice belonged to Lovino.

"No, it's my fault. I was daydreaming when I shouldn't be." You said nervously.

Lovino held his hand out to you. You grabbed it and Lovino pulled you up. You watched as he bent down to pick up the stuff that fell out of your bag.

"You're _______ ______, right? Lovino asked.

"Eh? You know my name?"

"Of course I do. You have a few classes with me. You're the lead singer of Clear, right?"

You nodded. "Yeah, I am."

"I've heard a few of your songs on Youtube and to be honest, you guys are pretty good, especially your singing." Lovino complimented.

"Th-thanks, I-i appreciate the c-compliment." you stammered, blushing a million shades of red.

"Why are you acting so nervous?" Lovino asked.

"Am I? Sorry about that. Errr I have to get home soon, so I'll talk to you later. Bye!" You said quickly before turning around to leave. You suddenly felt Lovino grab your wrist.

"What is it?"

"Your house is that way, right?" Lovino asked, pointing to the direction you were about to go in.

"Yeah, why?"

"My house is that way too, do you want to walk home together?"

"Sure, if that's okay with you." You replied.

"I'm fine with it."

You walked beside Lovino. You kept staring at ground, praying that Lovino couldn't hear your heart pounding rapidly.

"So, are you working on a new song?" Lovino asked, breaking the awkward silence.

"Yeah, we are. I'm the one that's gonna be writing it this time." You replied.

"I'll look foward to it. I know it's going to be a good one since it's written by you." Lovino said.

You smiled. "Thanks, I'll do my best!"

The both of you stopped in front of a house. "Well, this is my stop." Lovino said.

"See you later."

"Arrivederci." Lovino replied, patting your head. You felt your face heat up again and you quickly walked away. From a distance you could hear Lovino yell, "MARCELLO! NINTY-NINE PERCENT CHANCE OF SHIT STORM. COMING YOUR WAY. RIGHT NOW!"

You chuckled. 'Wonder what Marcello did to piss him off that much.'

'Thats was weird. He usually isn't this nice. Maybe he's one of those...what did Kiku call it? Ah, tsundere! Lovino's a tsundere!'

"I'm home!" You called out as you opened the door.

"Okairinasai, ________-san." Kiku said.

"Nii-chan, you're my brother now, so you can drop the -san part or if you want, you can call me ________-kun."

"Gomenasai, I'm still getting used you being my brother and all. Anyway, how was
band practice?" Kiku asked.

"It was fine, how was your 'study session' with Heracles?" You asked, putting up quotation marks with your fingers at the word 'study session.'

Kiku's face suddenly turned pink. "It went well, why you ask?"

"Come on, Nii-chan, don't think I don't know. You two would be studying then during your breaks you two would sneak a few kisses. I think you guys were close to doing it the last time I spyed on you." You teased.

"No more, please, _______-san, you're making me very uncomfortable." Kiku begged, blushing furiously.

"Hai, hai, I'll stop. Later!" You said, walking upstairs to your room.

You sat in a chair and turned on the computer. You looked at the message on the screen, showing you that you had a video call. You clicked answer and smiled at the webcam.

"Annyeong, _________, da-ze!"

"Hey, Yong Soo, how's it going over there in South Korea?" You asked.

"It's so boring! I wish I didn't have to move back here, da-ze." Yong Soo replied.

"I'm sure you'll manage, besides you'll visit me over the summer, right?"

"I'm still planning to and when I get there, your breasts are mine, da ze!"

"First of all, please don't do that, that's creepy and second of all, I'm a guy, so there's nothing for you to claim."

"Anyway, check this thing out." Yong Soo said.

A chatbox appeared containing a link.

"What's this?" You asked as you clicked on the link.

"A webcomic. It's pretty popular around here."

You kept scrolling down, reading the comic. Something about a school girl walking home late at night and some strange lady in pink pajamas.

"I felt like I shouldn't get any closer to her, nor did I have the guts to pass her by." You read aloud before you scrolled down even lower.
You lost control of the scroll bar and it went down on it's own.

You jumped, banging your knees against the table. "Ow, my fucking legs!"

Yong Soo burst out laughing.

"Oh my God, why did that fucking zombie bitch turn around!?!"

"Keep going, there's more."

You kept on reading it. The ghost asked, "Where's my baby?" and the scared school girl pointed as far as she could.

"She's not here!"

The scroll bar moved on it's own. The ghost was flying at the screen, showing a close up of her bloody face.

"HOLY SHIT!" You screamed (Manly scream, mind you), falling off of your chair.You heard Yong Soo laugh even harder.

You pulled yourself back up and glared at the camera."Never do that again."

"Mianhamnida, but your reaction was priceless, da ze! I even recorded it."

"Well, I guess I can say goodbye to a week's worth of sleep." You grumbled.

"How's it going with that Italian boy? Lovino I think his name was."

"I still hadn't told him, but we did talk for a bit and he walked home with me. It turns out he's a fan of the band that I'm in." You explained.

"Then that's a good sign. Just warm up to him and he'll be falling in love with you in no time, da ze."

"You make it sound easier than it is."

"Well, I gotta go. Najung-e boja."

"Talk to you later." You said before logging off.

*Timeskip*

'_________, meet me at the science classroom at the end of the hall. I have a surprise for you. I'll be waiting.
   - Lovino'

You stared at the note in disbelief. Lovino actually wanted to meet up with you, alone. What does he mean by surprise? You shrugged and stuffed the note in your pocket. You had this weird gut feeling that this was some sort of trap, but you just shrugged it off and went to the science classroom anyway. You stood in front of the door. You took a deep breath and turned the doorknob. You looked inside, but there was no one there.

"Hello?" You called out.

"Wow, I didn't think you were that stupid to fall for that note."

'Crap, I should've known.'

"What do you want with me, Douchebag?"

Mathias smirked sadisticly. "To teach you a lesson, fag."

"If that involves beating me up, then fine, I'll be able to bear with it."

"Oh no, I'm not gonna beat you up. I have a different method." Mathias replied.

"What excactly do you mean by- Mmph!" You were cut off by a rough kiss being placed on your lips.

The kiss ended quickly. "What the hell was that?!?!" You demanded.

"Don't act like you don't like it." Mathias whispered in your ear.

He takes off the blazer and the sweater vest then he kisses you again.

"Hey, stop it!" You cried as Mathias unbuttons your shirt.

He ignores your pleas and started sucking on your neck.

'Shit, I'm gonna get raped, am I?'

That thought made you shudder. Mathias took this as permission to continue and his hands traveled lower to your pants.

'I'm not gonna let myself get raped by this jerk. Come on, _________, fight back.'

Before Mathias could do anything else, you kicked him hard in the vital regions. You quickly grabbed your blazer and sweater vest and ran to the corner of the room far away from Mathias.

"I'm not done with you, yet." Mathias said as he picked up a beaker filed with some unknown liquid and threw it at you.You squeezed your eyes shut, preparing for the worst. Nothing came. You heard the sound of glass shattering followed by a blood curdling scream. You opened your eyes to see Lovino standing in front of you with his hands covering his face.

You looked at one of the glass pieces that had a label sticking on it. You gasped when you saw what was written on the label.

'Hydrochloric acid'

"Oh my god, Lovino!" You yelled.

"What happened here?" a voice asked. It was Feliciano.

"Call an ambulance." You said as you treated Lovino the best as you could.

"Hey, fratello, how do you feel?" Marcello asked.

"What do you think? It fucking hurts dammit!"

"It's okay, Lovino, the ambulance is almost here, just stay with me here, okay?"

*timeskip*

You sat in the waiting room with Feliciano and
Marcello. Your eyes darted around the room and your body was shaking from fear.

"Why did you have to come in at the wrong time?

This never would've happened if you didn't show up." You said to yourself.

"__________, it's not your fault, ve." Feliciano assured.

"Yes, it is!"

"No, it's not. Now, calm down, I'm sure he'll be fine." Marcello replied.

A few minutes later, a nurse walks into the room. "Anyone here for Lovino Vargas?"

"We are." Feliciano said. "How is he?"

The nurse bit her lip nervously. "I don't know how to tell you this, but...."

"Oh no, he's not dead, is he?" Marcello asked.

"No, he is in fact alive and well, but the acid damaged his eyes and left him permanently blind."

You felt your eyes start to water but you quickly wiped your tears away with your sleeve. 'Damn it, it's all my fault Lovino went blind.'


Ve, can we see him?" Feliciano asked.

"He's asleep now, but you can still come in and see him."

"Yay! Did you hear that, _________? We can go see fratello right now, ve" Feliciano said excitedly.

"Actually, I just remembered I had something to do today." You lied before you quickly ran out of the hospital.

*Timeskip*

It's been a few days since that incident. You never visited Lovino. You just felt too damn guilty to do so. Mathias got suspended for a few weeks for sexual assult, so that put you at ease for a while.

"Hey, dudes, have you noticed something weird about _______ lately?" Alfred asked his bandmates quietly.

"Now that you mentioned it, ________'s been depressed lately." Arthur said.

"Maybe he's still traumatized from almost getting raped by Mathias." Gilbert replied.

Nikolai shook his head. "No, it has to be something else."

"How can you tell, Nicky?" Alfred asked.

"I've known _________ way longer than the rest of you, so I can tell and Alfred, I swear to God, if you call me that awful nickname again, I will slit your throat and leave you to die."

"Okay, sorry."

"Leave this to me, I'll try to get something out of him."

Nikolai said as he walked over to you. "Гэй, _________."

"Oh, hey Nikolai."

"Is something wrong?" Nikolai asked.

You forced a smile. "Nope, I'm completely fine, why do you ask?"

"I was wondering if you want to come over to my house after band practice."

"For what?"

Nikolai shrugged. "No particular reason. Just to hang out, I guess."

"Fine."

*Timeskip*

"Okay, why did you want me here again?" You asked.

"I'm going to ask you a question and I want you to tell me the truth."

"Okay, what is it?"

"Well, we've notice that you haven't been acting like yourself lately. You look like you feel guilty about something. Did something happen?" Nikolai asked.

"No, I'm fine, I just have a lot on my mind."

"_______, don't lie to me."

"Really, I'm totally fine. Nothing happened." You lied.

Next thing you knew, there was something flying at you. You quickly dodged it before it could hit you. You looked over your shoulder to see a knife embedded into the wall like a dart.

"What the fuck, Nikolai!"

"_________, please tell me what's wrong. We hate seeing you like this."

You sighed. "Fine."

You spent the next twenty minutes telling Nikolai the entire story.

"So that's what happened. It's really not your fault, _________." Nikolai said.

"I'm just afraid he'll hate me because he lost his eyesight saving me."

"I doubt it. If he was going to hate you for it, he wouldn't do it in the first place. The least you can do for him is to support him and help him out."

"I guess I can do that." You said.

"Good ________."

You suddenly heard a noise, like something was hitting the window. Nikolai stood up and looked out his window."I think it's for you."

You looked out the window and saw Marcello and Feliciano standing outside.

"Well, looks like they want me. Thanks for the advice, Nikolai." You said as you grabbed your bag.

You heard the door close. "Я дома!" A voice called out.

"Big brother Ivan, marry me, marry me, marry me." Nikolai chanted in a creepy voice and ran out of the room.

"нет, I won't marry you!" Ivan cried.

You laughed at the scene. 'I guess I shouldn't tell Nikolai about Ivan and Yao.' You thought as you left the house.

Marcello grabbed your wrist and dragged you away while Feliciano pushes you.

"Wait, where are we going?" You asked.

"To see Lovino, what else?" Marcello replied.

"But I don't think he wants me around him."

"You idiota! What do you mean he doesn't want you around? He's been asking for you for the past five days!" Marcello said angrily.

"You're gonna go see fratello whether you like it or not, ve!"

You tried to protest but your efforts were futile. They dragged you to the hospital anyway. After a seemingly endless maze of hallways, they stopped in front of a door. Marcello opens it and Feliciano pushes you in then Marcello closes the door behind you, leaving you alone in the room with Lovino. You walked over to him and saw that he was asleep.

'He looks so innocent when he sleeps.' You thought as you brushed his bangs away from his eyes.

You felt you lips curl into a small smile. You opened your mouth and started to sing quietly.

Nanimo kikoenai nanimo kikasete kurenai
Boku no karada ga mukashi yori
otona ni natta kara na no ka

Beddo ni oite ita hajimete katta kuroi rajio
Ikutsu mono merodii ga ikutsu mono jidai wo tsukutta

Shishun ki ni shounen kara otona ni kawaru
Michi wo sagashite ita kegare mo nai mama ni
Kazarareta ikiba no nai oshiyoseru hitonami ni
Hontou no shiawase oshiete yo kowarekake no Radio

"Your voice is amazing, _______." You heard a voice say.

You snapped out of your little reverie and looked at Lovino. His eyes were now dull and cloudy. You felt that small pang of guilt when you stared into his eyes, knowing that he'll never be able to see again.

"Eh? You think so?"

"Si." Lovino replied.

You blushed a little bit. "Th-thank you." You said.

"Prego."

"Hey, Lovino."

"Hmm?"

"How can you act like that?"

Lovino gives you a confused look. "Act like what?"

"How can you act like nothing happened? You can't see a fucking thing and you're just gonna shrug it off like that?!? Are you even mad at me at all?"

"Why would I be mad at you?"

"The acid should've hit me, I should be in your place right now! It's my fucking fault that you're blind as a bat!" You cried.

You felt the tears threatening to fall but you wiped them off before they could. Lovino wrapped his arms around you and pulled you close to his chest.

"If it's to keep you safe, then I wouldn't mind losing my eyesight. Knowing that you're safe and sound, it was worth it." Lovino said, stroking your hair.

The two of you stayed like that for what seemed like hours. Lovino smiled when he heard the sound of light snoring. Lovino heard the door opening.

"Hola, Loviiii!"

"Stai zitto, Tomato Bastard! Can't you see ________'s sleeping?" Lovino hissed.

"________?" Antonio said in confusion. His eyes landed on your sleeping form. "Isn't that kid from Clear?"

"Yes he is, are you blind or something?"

"Lovi, the last time I checked, you're the blind one."

"Shut up, bastardo! Why did you come here anyway?" Lovino asked.

"I just wanted to check up on you and give you a get well present." Antonio replied. "I got you some tomatoes!"

"Just leave them on the table and get the hell out."

"Aww, Lovi, can I just stay for five minutes?" Antonio whined.

"Fine, five minutes and that's it."

"So, what's the lead singer of Clear doing here?" Antonio asked.

"He has a name, you know and he's the one I lost my eyesight for." Lovino said.

"You seem to have an interest in him. You're a lot nicer to him than anyone else. Maybe mi tomate has fallen in love!" Antonio teased.

"I'm not in love, bastardo!"

"You're totally in love. You're holding him oh-so protectively and he's curled up next to you. So cute!" Antonio exclaimed.

"Keep it down, bastardo! You're gonna wake ________ up! You know what, just get the fuck out!"

"Okay, fine, I'll leave you two alone now." Antonio said before leaving the room.

The room was silent. The only thing Lovino could hear was the sound of you breathing.

He smiled. "You sure are a heavy sleeper."

"Sogni d'oro" Lovino whispered before falling asleep.

*Timeskip*

The sunlight shone through the curtains, waking you up. You tried to get up, but Lovino's arms were wrapped tightly around you, preventing you to do so.

You blushed. 'He's too close!'

Lovino moved a bit and slowly opened his eyes.

"Are you awake?" he asked.

"Yeah, I'm up. Morning, Lovino!" You said cheerfully.

"Buongiorno, _______." Lovino replied.

Your eyes landed on the basket of tomatoes on the table.

"Where did those tomatoes come from?"

"That Tomato Bastard brought them." Lovino answered. "What time is it by the way?"

You looked up at the clock. "Ten thirty. We sure slept a lot, huh?"

You heard the door open.

"Buongiorno, fratello!" Feliciano greeted.

"Ciao, ________. When did you get here?" Marcello asked.

"I spent the night. Anyway, when can Lovino leave the hospital?" You asked.

"Today! We're here to pick him up, ve." Feliciano replied. "Come on, fratello, I brought you a change of clothes."

"Grazie." Lovino said as he stood up. Feliciano grabbed Lovino's arm and guided him to the bathroom.

"You really like fratello, don't you?" Marcello asked.

"Which one are you talking about?"

"Lovino of course."

Your face turned red and you looked at the ground."Wh-what makes you say that?"

"You're showing some obvious signs right now." Marcello said bluntly.

"No I'm not."

"Yes you are, don't deny it." Marcello laughed. "It's okay, you don't have to hide it."

"Ve, what are you guys talking about?"

"Nothing!" You said quickly.

*timeskip*

"First stop, ________'s house!" Feliciano announced.

"I think we already know where we're going, you don't have to say it." You said as you buckled your seatbelt.

"Just a warning, you might wanna hold on tight because Feli's one hell of a driver." Marcello said.

And Marcello was right.

"Damn, Feliciano, have the cops ever pulled you over for driving like that?"

"Nope."

"Well, thanks for the ride."

"Prego."

"I'm home." You called out as you opened the door.

No reply.

"Huh, no one's home." A voice said.

You jumped."Damn it, Marcello, don't just walk in to people's houses whenever you please. What are you doing here anyway?"

"Waiting for you to go get changed. You're spending the day with us today and we don't want you going out in your school uniform." Marcello explained.

"Fine, just give me 10 minutes."

You ran to your room and dug through your closet. After a few minutes, you finally settled on wearing a white t-shirt, a blue plaid shirt, a pair of dark skinny jeans and black converse sneakers.

"So, where are we going?" You asked.

"Somewhere." Marcello replied.

*FLYING MINT BUNNY TIMESKIP!!!*

"Feliciano? Marcello? Where the fuck did you go?!?" You yelled at the top of your lungs.

"Gah, damn bastards ditched us!"

"I'm just as mad as you are, Lovino, can I kill your brothers when we find them?"

"Sure, go ahead." Lovino said.

"Alright! Feliciano, Marcello, I will hunt you down and go all ninja mode on your asses!" You exclaimed.

You suddenly heard a rumbling sound and realized it came from your stomach. You blushed with embarrassment.

"Errr, I think it's a good idea if we get something to eat first." You said, laughing nervously.

"That's fine, I was starting to get hungry anyway." Lovino replied.

"There's a cafe nearby, come on." You said running away.

"Uh, _________."

You stopped running and turned around. "Yeah?"

Lovino held out his hand.

"Oh, I almost forgot, sorry." You said as you grabbed Lovino's hand.

*moar timeskips!!!*

"Itadakimasu!" You said happily before popping a pink macaroon in your mouth.

"You sure get excited when it comes to food." Lovino commented. "It's cute."

You blushed. "Anyway, how are you adjusting to life without your eyesight?" You asked, changing the subject.

"It's kind of a pain in the ass not being able to see anything, but I don't mind, I'll get used to it eventually."

"Sorry."

"Why do you keep apologizing? It's not your fault." Lovino said.

"I guess I still feel guilty about it."

"Well, don't be."

"Okay." You replied.

"Umm...excuse me?" a voice said from behind you.

You turned around to see one of the waitresses standing near your table.

"Uhh, yes?"

"Are you ________ from Clear?" the waitress asked.

"Yeah, I am."

The waitress squealed a little. "Oh my gosh, I'm a huge fan. I have all of your songs on my ipod and my friend has a major crush on you."

You raised an eyebrow. 'Wow, I didn't think we were famous outside the school.' You thought.

"Well, it's nice to know I have a fan." You said.

"Can I take a picture of you to send to my friend? She will flip when she finds out I met you."

You nodded. The waitress took out her cell phone. You smiled and flashed a peace sign. The waitress snaps a picture then closes her cell phone. "Thank you!"

"What was that?" Lovino asked as soon as the waitress dissappeared.

You shrugged. "I don't know either. I didn't think I would have a fan outside of school. I mean, I'm _______ ______ from Clear, not Harry Styles from One Direction."

"Trust me, you're a lot better than One Direction. I bet you would get more fangirls than they would." Lovino said. (A/N: Sorry Directioners >.< I like 1D too, I'm just not one of those obsessed fangirls.)

"We're working on it! Though I actually think One Direction is pretty cool."

Lovino raises an eyebrow. "What? Is it wrong for a guy to like One Direction?" You asked.

You suddenly felt your phone vibrate in your back pocket.

"Hello?"

"________, you have to come see this!" Feliciano cried from the other end.

"See what?" You asked.

"Look up."

"Ummm...all I see is a perfectly blue sky with black clouds. Wait, black clouds? The fuck?"

"Cosa c'è di sbagliato?" Lovino asked.

"What?" You replied, mentally cursing your limited knowledge of Italian.

"I said what's wrong?"

"I have no idea, all I know is that there are black clouds in the sky and that's not normal."

*MOAR TIMESKIPS!!!!!*

You walked with Lovino to the where Feliciano and Marcello are, following Feliciano's directions. You glanced at Lovino, who was your hand in one hand and a cane in the other. As for you, you were clutching a small box of macaroons.

"Hey,________, do you smell that?" Lovino asked

"Smell what?"

"Like something's burning."

You gagged as soon as the burning smell hit your nose.

"What the hell is going on?" You coughed.

Your eyes widened in shock when you saw the scene in front of you.

"What's wrong, ______?" Lovino asked.

"F-fire..." You said weakly, shaking violently.

"Fratello! _________!" Feliciano called out.

"What the fuck happened here?" Lovino asked.

"I don't know. Marcello and I were walking by and the building just burst into flames!"

"Well, you're both okay, right?"

"Si, we're fine." Feliciano replied.

"You all may be alright, but I think something's wrong with ________." Marcello said.

"_________? What's wrong?" Lovino asked.

You didn't answer. You were trembling so much and your breaths came out in short pants.

"Oi,________, snap out of it and answer me!"

"I think it's best if we get out of here." Feliciano said.

Lovino put an arm around your shoulder and led you away from the scene.

"Hey, ti senti bene?"

Your vision started to get blurry and you passed out.

*NYAN CAT RAINBOW TIMESKIP!!!!*

The first thing you noticed when you woke up was you weren't in your own bed. You didn't want to get up because the sheets were so soft and had a faint scent of tomatoes to them.

"________, I know that you're awake."

"You can't see anything, how can you tell?" You asked as you sat up.

"I just can." Lovino replied.

"What happened?"

"When you saw the fire, you freaked out and fainted. We ended up taking you to our house."

"Ah, so that's what happened." You said.

"How to you feel?"

"I'm fine. Have a small headache, but other than that I'm fine. I should be able to walk home on my own." You replied.

"Oh, bene. See you later then?"

"Yeah!"

*Timeskip brought to you by Mary and her army of creepy paintings and dolls*

You rested your head on the desk as the bell rang.

"Fucking Mondays." You muttered.

"Hey,________." Someone whispered.

You turned your head to see a boy with long brown hair tied in a ponytail, an orange flower clipped to his hair, and green eyes.

"What Daniel?" You groaned sleepily.

"Look who's back." Daniel said, pointing to the door behind you.

As soon as you turned your head, Lovino walks into the room.

"Eh? He didn't tell me he would be back at school."

You heard a few kids whispering and laughing, probably talking about Lovino. Lovino payed no attention to them and walked to his seat, which happened to be next to yours. Then some kid decides to be a jerk. When Lovino was about to walk pass him, he sticks his foot out and sends Lovino falling to the floor. Then half of the class decide to be assholes and laugh.

You got up from your seat and walked over to Lovino.

"Here, I'll help you up." You said, holding out your hand.

Lovino felt around for a few seconds before he found your hand. You pulled him up thne picked up his cane and gave it to him.

"Grazie,_________." Lovino said.

"No problem."

You sat back down, just in time to see Daniel with his cell phone out.

"Were you taking pictures again?" You asked.

"Yep and I sent them to my sister."

"You and Elizabeta have no shame at all do you?"

"Nope! To be honest, we think you and Lovino look cute together."

"Shhhh, he's right there you know!" You whispered.

*Please enjoy a drunk dancing waiter Iggy as we bring you to the next scene*

"Okay, you ready guys?" You asked.

"Ja."

"Yes.

"Yeah, I'm totally ready!"

"ды."

"Alright! Let's get going!" You said cheerfully.

The music started and you played your guitar as you waited for the instrumental to be over then you started to sing.

Dark side in my heart is
nuguisarenai kako no kanashimi
It's alright  kokoro ni mo nai
Blaster hanachi  te o nobashita
my life  kirihanashita
gakubuchi no naka nagameru you ni
sonzai shoumei  issai mou nee
karoujite tamotsu jibun jishin

sakete toorenai michi wa  itsu kara ka konna datta
soshite dare mo inaku natta...

unmei nante kuso kurae
yarikirenakute cry for pride
ah, ah, ah, alone in my world
hibiku ai no uta
yuganda sekai  magatta negai
kuzuresatte iku risou to ashita
haite suteru hodo ni taikutsu datta
good bye precious life

Dark cloud in my heart is
harewatari michi ni hikari wa sashita
Let's fight  osore wa nai
moroha no tsurugi furikazashita
my life  hitorikiri ja nai
nakama no koe ni michibikareru hou ni
sonzai shoumei  issai koutei
tokihanatta jibun jishin

sakete toorenai michi wa  itsu datte konna datta
mayoi wa kiete naku natta...

unmei nante kuso kurae
gamushara ni natte try for pride
ah, ah, ah, alone in my world
kikoeru ai no uta
hizunda sekai  todokasu negai
yowane nante mon wa nigiritsubushita
haite suteru hodo ni taisetsu datta
it's my precious life

unmei nante kuso kurae
yarikirenakute cry for pride
ah, ah, ah, alone in my world
hibiku ai no uta
yuganda sekai  magatta negai
kuzuresatte iku risou to ashita
haite suteru hodo ni taikutsu datta
good bye precious life

unmei nante nurikaete
kizu darake ni natte try for pride
ah, ah, ah alone in my world
sore de mo ai o utau
hizunda sekai  todokasu negai
kizukiagete'ku kizuna to ashita
haite sutete mo kekkyoku taisetsu na n da
it's my precious life



"Alright, great practice today guys!" You said.

"Hey, _________, there's someone outside the door and I think it's for you." Nikolai informed.

"Eh? Really?" You asked as you looked out the door to see Lovino standing outside.

"Hey, Lovino. Did you get lost or something?"

"Sort of."

"You got lost on purpose just so you could somehow end up here and see _______, right?" Nikolai said.

"I didn't come to see ________. I got lost and just happened to pass by."

"Uh huh, whatever you say." Nikolai said sarcastically.

"Nik, you be nice." You scolded.

"Whatever."

"Anyway, since we're done with practice and there's ten minutes left of after school time, I want you to come meet my brother." You said as you grabbed Lovino's hand and pulled him toward the library.

"Hello, Nii-chan." You whispered from behind a bookshelf.

Kiku jumped at the sudden sound. "Oh, it's just you, ________-kun."

"Nii-chan, I want you to meet someone." You said, pulling Lovino next to you. "Lovino, this is my brother Kiku Honda. Nii-chan, this is my friend, Lovino Vargas."

"Ah, You're Feliciano-kun's brother, right? Hajimemashite."

"Piacere di conoscerti, Kiku. So you're one of Feli's friends, huh?"

Kiku nodded. "Hai, your brother is very nice, though his unhealthy obsession with pasta is kind of irritating and he doesn't seem to get the concept of personal space."

"Anyway, do you wanna walk home together, Nii-chan?"

"Gomenasai, I'm going somewhere with Heracles after school." Kiku said.

"By 'going somewhere' you mean a date?" You teased.

Kiku started to turn red. "See you at home, __________-kun." He said quickly before he grabbed his bag and left the library.

"Man, he's such an easy tease." You chuckled. You turned to Lovino.

"Do you wanna walk home together? Feliciano and Marcello probably ditched your ass again and I'm not letting you get lost."

"Si, I would like that."

*WE'RE BEING ATTACKED BY THE TIMESKIP ARMY! LET'S RUN LIKE ITALIANS!!*

"Hey,_________, can I ask you something?" Lovino asked.

"Yeah?"

"Why do you and Kiku have different last names even thought you're brothers?"

"Well, about that...Nii-chan's not really my brother. I'm adopted, actually." You explained.

"Ah, I see. What happened you your real parents?" Lovino asked.

You frowned and stared at the ground. "I'd rather not talk about it."

"Mi dispiace, I was being insensitive."

"No, it's fine. That was all a long time ago, anyway." You said.

"And another thing, you called me your friend earlier, why?"

You looked up at Lovino in cofusion. "We are friends right?"

"Well, only if you want to be friends."

"Of course!" You exclaimed.

*Laaaaaaaa moar timeskiiipsss!!!!*

Weeks passed by. Lovino can pretty much do basic things and get around by himself, but of course you were always there to help him out. The two of you had grown very close, even your fellow band members noticed and teased you for it.

You just sitting at your desk, trying to come up with lyrics for a new song.

"Gah, now I know how writers feel like when they get writers block." You said, banging your head on the desk multiple times.

You suddenly heard someone laughing obnoxiously and it wasn't Alfred.

"Fuck, he's back, isn't he?" You whisper.

"Who's back?" Lovino asked.

"That fucking Dane, idiot."

"Don't worry, I won't let him do anything to you." Lovino assured.

"How? You're blind now and unless swinging your cane around can make him cry in a corner, there's nothing you can do."

Lovino smirked."I may be blind, but I'm not completely helpless."

"Whatever."

You saw Mathias enter the room and you quickly turned your attention to your notebook, hoping he would just leave you alone and carry on with whatever the hell he does.

"Hello, _________, nice seeing you again." Mathias said oh-so innocently.

You ignored him.

"Hey, listen to me when I'm talking to you!"

"I'm listening, I just choose to ignore you." You said. "What do you want?"

"Payback for getting me suspended." Mathias replied as he raised a hand to hit you.

You squeezed your eyes shut, preparing for impact. You heard a sound but it wasn't you who took the hit. It was Lovino.

"Lovino, what are you...?"

"I said I wouldn't let him hurt you, didn't I?" Lovino said.

"Defending the queer, huh? I think I'll be nice to him today and let you take his place."

"What? No, don't hurt him!" You cried.

It was too late. Mathias was already beating Lovino like a punching bag while you watched helplessly. There was a small crowd forming and no one even bothered to do anything. Some people were even encouraging Mathias.

Then you snapped right there.

Next thing Mathias knew, something heavy hit him, sending him to the ground.

You walked over to Mathias and picked up the chair you previouly threw. You raised it over your head and hit Mathias as hard as you could over and over. You dropped the chair and let it fall beside Mathias.

"Look, I don't care if you call me a fag or beat the absolute crap out of me, but next time you mess with Lovino or any of my friends, I won't hesitate to kill you, you hear me?" You threatened, looking at Mathias with pure hatred in your eyes.

You turned around and walked over to Lovino. "Are you okay?" You asked, helping Lovino up."Ah, fuck, why do I bother asking, you look anything but okay."

*Pewdie: BARRELS! D:< Yuzuki: TIMESKIPS! YOU LITTLE FUCKERS, DA YO! D:<*

"And there you go!" You said, sticking another bandaid on Lovino's face.

"Grazie."

"Baka." You muttered.

"What?"

"Baka! Why did you take the hit for me? Now look what happened!"

"This is nothing, really."

"Nothing, my ass!"

You heard knocking. Then the door opens, revealing the other members of Clear, Feliciano and Marcello.

"Dude, that was awesome!" Alfred exclaimed.

"What was?" You asked.

"We all know. You totally pwned Mathias with a chair!"

"Wait, how did you find out?" You asked.

"Daniel put a video of it on Facebook. We really didn't think you would do that kind of thing." Gilbert said.

"I really don't know what came over me. I just snapped and grabbed the thing closest to me and threw it."

"But you finally stood up to Mathias. I'm so proud of you, __________." Nikolai said, giving you a pat on the back.

"Ve, you didn't get in trouble did you?" Feliciano asked.

"Well the principal was pissed at first, then Lovino told him I only did it because Mathias was kicking the crap out of him and he let me off the hook, kinda." You explained.

"What do you mean kinda?" Arthur asked.

"I got suspended for a week, but ehh, it was worth it."

"I guess that's one of the perks of your grandpa as the school principal. If it were anyone else, Nonno would've gave them something even worse." Marcello said.

"Though it's nice to know that douche knows not to mess with me. I get pretty violent when I snap."

*One week later*

"Ve, ciao, ________!" Feliciano called out.

"Oh, s'up, Feli?"

"Bentornato!" Feliciano said as he hugged you tightly.

"Ummm, Feli, I don't speak Italian. What did you just say?" You asked.

"Feli says, Welcome back." Marcello explained.

"Thanks, Marci, and Feli, I just got suspended for a week, I didn't go on a trip to Hawaii for a year."

"That's still too long. We missed you, especially Lovi!"

"Anyway what do you want?" You asked.

"We wanna invite you over our house. I'm making pasta!" Feliciano said.

You nodded. "Sure!"

*Later that day*

You knocked on the door. A few seconds later, the door opens, revealing Marcello.

"Ciao, ________!"

"Hey, Marci!" You replied.

"Well, come on in."

"Thanks. I brought onigiri." You said, holding out a box.

"Ah, grazie." Marcello replied, taking the box.

Feliciano runs out of the kitchen. "_________, you're here, ve!"

"Where's Lovino?" You asked.

"Ve, he's in the tomato garden in the backyard."

"Thanks." You said, heading towards the back door.

When you went outside, you saw Lovino sitting on the grass eating a tomato. You walked over to Lovino as quietly as you could.

"Boo!"

Lovino flinched. "Chigi!"

"Hey Lovino!"

"Dammit, don't scare me like that!"

You laughed. "Sorry."

"So, was one week suspension fun?"

"If you call playing Amnesia and Assassin's Creed and rocking out to k-pop in my room fun, then yeah, I had fun." You said. "Did you miss me?"

Lovino blushed. "I didn't. Okay, maybe I did, but I didn't miss you too much."

"Uh huh, whatever you say."

"Hey, I've been wondering. Why does Mathias pick on you. I mean, I know he's a total asshole and all, but why does he target you most of the time?" Lovino asked.

"Why wouldn't he want to bully me? I'm short, I have a girly figure for some fucking reason, and I'm gay for fucks sake!"

"I still don't see what's wrong with that. He obviously doesn't see the other good qualities you have."

"Really, bro? Name one."

"I can't name just one. You're an amazing singer, you're always happy and cheerful,you have a kind heart and you don't take shit from other people, your smile is cute and there are other things I can't name."

"Thanks, I guess." You said, blushing.

The two of you sat in silence for a few moments. "Lovino?"

"Hmm?"

"Why are you so nice to me?" You asked.

"Uhm, well...."

"EEK!" You heard someone scream from inside the house.

"What the hell? That sounded like Feli." You said.

"What the hell did the idiota do this time?"

You grabbed Lovino's hand and ran into the house.

"Feli, are you okay? What happened?" You yelled.

"I don't know! I just walked in the kitchen and found the pasta on fire!"

"How the hell can you fuck that up?" Lovino asked.

"I don't knooow. I'm sorry, fratello!" Feliciano cried.

"Well, put it out, dumbass!"

"I am!"

Your eyes widened in fear. You started shaking uncontrollably.

"________, are you okay?" Marcello asked.

"No, please stop it." You whimpered.

"Stop what? I'm not doing anything to you."

"NO! STOP IT! STOP IT, DAD! DON'T HURT ME!" You screamed.

"________, no one is gonna hurt you, calm down!" Lovino said.

"No,no, no, NO! GO AWAY!"

"Lovino, take care of ________. We'll clean up here, okay?"

*drowns in the sea of timeskips*

"Are you okay now?" Lovino asked.

You nodded. "I'm fine."

"You seem to freak out when you see fire. Is there some sort of reason for that?"

"Well, it's long story." You said.

"Go ahead, I'm listening."

You sighed and started taking off your shirt. You turned you head to looked at the mirror behind you. You groaned in digust when you saw the ugly scar on your back.

"Now, this is gonna sound weird, but touch my back."

"Uhh, okay?"

You winced when you felt Lovino's fingers touch the scar. "What happened?" he asked.

"I got burned." You replied.

"How?"

"Well, my mom commited suicide when I was little. My dad blamed me for her death and started to get violent and abused me. Then one day, he tied me up, lit a candle and gave me this scar." You explained.

"What happened afterward?"

"I told Nikolai what happened and he called the cops. After my dad got arrested, Kiku's parents took me in. The end."

"You really got it bad, huh?"

"It's alright. It was all in the past, anyway." You said.

"It's hard to believe something like this happened to you. You're always optimistic and that smile never seems to leave your face."

"You know what the funny thing is? I never cried. Whenever my dad hit me, I didn't cry. When he burned my back, I didn't cry. Hell, I didn't even cry when Mathias started picking on me." You said.

"Why?"

"I thought everyone liked me better when I smiled, so that's what I did." You replied.

"You shouldn't fake your smile like that." Lovino said.

"Huh?"

"If you feel like crying, then just cry. No one will mind if you don't smile. Just don't hide your real feelings. Besides, I like you better when you're smiling for real."

*Timeskip: You mad?*

You were lying down on your bed, staring up at the ceiling.

"Don't hide your real feelings, huh?" You said to yourself.

You grabbed you guitar and your notebook. You tore out some pages and tossed them in the wastebasket. 'They're probably gonna get pissed for keeping them up all night.'

TBC